I ate shit twice. Literally and metaphorically

Just got home from one of the best backpacking trips of the season. Went to Sable Pass. High bear activity but we did not run into any. I am still amazed at how good it feels to carry all you need on your own back. Even more amazed that my little frame hauls 60 pounds straight up mountain sides that first seem impossible. Any thing that is difficult will feel that much better once over, and i was/am still on a high from it. Not to mention it was Beautiful. Picked wildflowers, ate wild goat poop just for giggles, BLUEBERRIES,woke up in the middle of the night peeped out the tent door to find that the entire sky was covered in stars. First time in three months i have seen that, and i am pretty sure this blew any sky back home out of the water. The clean breeze, wildness, darkness and then those stars really blew me away last night. I had to thank him;)

We had to do a river crossing, we all bit it. Current was stronger than it looked and too swift. Soaked. It was the coldest water i have ever been in. Bruised my knees up pretty bad.

I have to say that one of the best feelings ever is the feeling of being exhausted and dirty and finally getting to sit down after a knee crunching excursion.

I will miss these friendships, i will miss this beauty, i will miss the flavor of this place in general.

It's crunch time. About three more weekends free to be in backcountry before i leave this gorgeous place.

During the week of cleaning toilets i think i am ready for a change, but as soon as i get out in the backcountry i wonder how i will ever part with Alaska. It seems impossible.

Off to rest. Peace to all.

Ready to be grungy and moving...

Goodness. I have just about a month left here. Mixed feelings run through me. Did I do enough? Did i love enough? Will i see these people ever again? Will my cravings for adventure ever stop? Will i ever be around this many beards at the same time again? I will miss the flavor of this place, the beauty that never hides...

It actually gets dark now! I can see a few stars at night . It will be getting colder soon. the seasons are so strange here, not bad , just strange. Drinking Merlot and watching the Northern Lights for the first time tonight. Really thrilled about it. This weekend i finally get enough time off to venture out into the park again. I miss the wilderness. MUCH NEEDED. ...Reading to be grungy and moving...

Tennessee is my near future, for a while. I need to organize, plan, and save some money for the next move.. Colorado or Organic Farming in New Zealand....how in the world do you choose! It still baffles me that you can set your heart on something and actually make it happen.... A lot of people would disagree, but so many ordinary people have done great things out of desire for new experience...

It will be so good to see my family and meet my new nephew Mason. I am really stoked about it. I hope the beautiful boy will always know and love me, even though I will not be consistently around..Home-cooking and Blue Ridge Mountains are calling me back slowly .I have great plans on how to stay content in Tennessee for a season. Including; backpacking those Smokey Mountains, Harmonica practice, guitar, gardening, taking Mason on his first hike, cabin building, neighbors and bee-hiving, picture editing for website, book shopping, getting back to running and eating healthy, and cooking with mum...

I have to make a list for comfort reasons...

and maybe one day in the future i will think about a career again... just not now. What does career even mean anyways?

I want more people to follow me on here...It is hard to advertise without being cocky. I struggle with this often. Thats why i think you should do it for me. So if you read this, make someone else do it too.;)

"Learn to feel naked in your clothes"

-Meg